I truly wonder how this friendship is.
Maybe I’m looking at it differently, MAINLY because I do have these feelings and thoughts towards him.
It is hard to tell. Honestly it really is. He is much older than I, maybe I might seem like a child in his eyes?
I don’t know. Nicknames he has given me make me wonder whether he does this with others.
I can’t say he might feel the same way for me because he truly is a mystery to me. But in some way, he is a comfort to talk to. I enjoy having conversations with him. We have an even flow, but without telling him what I feel, it’s unclear.
I am tempted to tell him, yet I don’t want to ruin what he have just uncovered.
So it still stands. This wonder and this confusion.
Maybe I am just being selfish with his friendship thinking it can lead to anything more.
How insensitive of me.